do you ever think about coffee?

it's kind of weird, because i know some people (a lot of people) drink coffee to wake up in the morning or get a bit more energy (that's what my parentals do)

some people get more tired when they drink coffee

i don't actually know what coffee does for me

i wanna say it's like what birb told me, where he's convinced himself that it does something so it actually does something (placebo effect? but not really?)

and other people have told me that the way to go about caffeine is to just consume a lot of it at once, y'know?

i don't like energy drinks though because of the carbonation, it makes my mouth hurt and it's just it's weird, okay? i don't get it

and then i don't really like coffee either, i guess?
i thought i was picky about the brand of coffee and the type of roast and whatever, but it turns out it's the creamer that i add that makes me like the flavor

without it, my coffee tastes bland and like depression, and with it, it tastes less like depression only issue is that i usually drink cold to room temperature drinks, so i tend to drink my coffee slowly too, over a too long period of time

by the time i get halfway through my drink, it's gotten cold enough that i no longer wish to drink it half the reason i drink coffee is because i want to drink something hot (no i will not just drink hot chocolate or something)

i'm too lazy to microwave it, because that feels like a cheap copout

i'm also very picky about the mug i use, there's like 3 okay mugs and a million bad mugs

the 2 i use the most are a nasa mug that says "Rocket Fuel" and a great wolf lodge one from quite a few years ago (i think we got it when i was in 1st grade, so like 10 years ago?)

yeah no my coffee is cold though, that's why i'm writing this

i'm also working on my website, no i will not be posting the link cuz it's still a wip so don't
expect it yet (also sorry sysop for being irritating earlier when you were helping me, i appreciate the help but you felt really condescending and i've been dealing with a lot of condescending/infuriating men recently so i just got kinda fed up, i know what the problem was and
why the image wasn't working/ended up as the default "no pic" thing, i just didn't want you to keep making fun of me)

i think i'm gonna do a full redesign cuz i've been looking at some simple sites other people have
made for themselves (professional websites, blogs, simple little things), and i really like the style of a few of them

of course i'll keep blogging on here but i may end up cross-posting onto my website just so i have my own little copy, or doing something else, i don't really know yet

oh my word guys i'm looking at stuff while i write this and i just found the most incredible little website this is actually so cool, they have a christmas countdown too lmao THE MOUSE CURSOR IS A
MOOSE this is great hahahaha

yeah no anyways, my coffee is cold, my lungs hurt as they usually do, there's some weird computer synth music playing for some reason..? i don't know, youtube autoplay i guess... i'm also cold, you know the deal, life is weird and keeps on keeping on or whatever people say

i'll be around all weekend i suppose, or i won't be

who knows, maybe i'll go drive a bit tomorrow

good morning, and if i don't see ya- good afternoon, good evening, and good night

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